Search for the Essence of Elmod

A Deep Wake‑Up Call From the Soul

I feel that the new cycle of 2026 has invited profound shifts of energy. Lately I have sensed a strong call from my soul to delve deeper into the core of myself and the Way of Elmod. What is the essence of Elmod, and what is the soul silently whispering to me to become? What direction is it hinting I should move toward: East, South, West, or North? Bravery, cowardice, love, or fear? Forgiveness, compassion, understanding, or transparency? Which direction is my soul pointing, and why am I even alive and experiencing all of this? Life is wild and strange sometimes, but also beautiful and breathtaking in its own way. In the years I have lived this life, I have come to see that my pattern is based on a mix of neediness and aversion, which bubbles up in relationships I have with the world. I understand it to be quite content‑based, and it shows up in my relationship with money, things, friendships, and many other areas—especially in romantic relationships and my own relationship with myself.

Reveling of the Pattern

So this is how I have come to understand the pattern thus far. First comes a rushing sensation saying that I need an external person, thing, or anything else to feel fulfilled or happy. When I finally “get” that thing—say, a romantic relationship—the counterpart kicks in and runs away from it. I call this a Great Pull‑Push: pulling something deeply into myself, then pushing it away. I feel that this has become so ingrained in me that it is difficult to recognize when it is happening.

A good example is romantic relationships. I feel a strong magnetic force pulling me toward a partnership, and I get “sucked” into it, sometimes losing myself in the process. I think, “This is it!” Then I become overwhelmed and rationally find any reason not to stay in the relationship—whether it is a desire for celibacy or becoming a monk, a belief that I am not ready for a partnership, or the notion that I have not found “the one” yet. The reasons seem very true and, in a way, good for me. Becoming a monk for a while is definitely beneficial, but the crucial question is: Is the reason coming from fear, or is it rooted in love, and what is the underlying intention? Getting clear on this helps me find the correct path forward, because do not we all want to move toward love and let go of fear?

Living in the Energy of Fear

I am nowhere near being complete in my own experience of this, but I am working on getting wiser and clearer, day by day and stone by stone. For me fear has many aspects and some of them, I look at as energy that hides, runs away and closes in. So if I am hiding something away, running away from something or closing myself in, then I know the answer is yes, and that it is fear. It can be a combination of the sum or one or several combined.

My own experience with romantic relationships is very much like this. Hiding my own truth for myself and the partner, running away when difficult feelings come up, and closing myself in a blanket of fear. I feel like I have run towards fear in most parts of my life, and just in the last couple of years, started to move towards love instead. And what a difficult, but also liberating path that has become.

In my experience the energy of fear is centered around worry and often located in my own head, but also in the stomach like a heavy knot. Overthinking scenarios that are way outside of my control and letting that guide my decision making. For me it is like a dark, black and heavy carpet that hooks itself to my being and generates many of the negative thoughts I associate it with. Like unworthiness, self‑doubt and the belief that I should be alone and not have deep fulfilling relationships, with myself or others. Suddenly it is there out of nowhere and tells me all these things. I can often feel physically tired and the inner spark of creativity is less available.

Living in the Energy of Love

How would it look if I acted from a place of love instead of fear? I think I would first remember that love in this context becomes the energy that reveals, stays and opens up. Then I would with courage let the difficult emotions surface without putting them on the other, stay without making any decisions and in the end open myself up to being vulnerable. I feel that this is the scary and difficult part.

Staying in the fear is actually the comfortable and easy part, because I feel I have become so used to it. I am sure that it can be like running outside on a cold day in a T‑shirt. It can be scary or difficult before starting but when the momentum is built, then it becomes more easy. I feel that for me it is getting used to being in love, instead of being in fear.

In my experience the energy of love is centered around my heart and invites a warm, but also soft and gently feeling of ease and peace. It removes worry and opens up the knot in the stomach. I feel that love focuses less on outcome, and more on being in the present moment. It is like a stone sitting quietly resting in its own magnificence without any need or wants. Love for me simply is and puts no requirement on anything. It meets everything with the energy of understanding, acceptance and compassion. Without putting conditions for anything to be other than what it is just in this moment. From love’s ultimate perspective, everything is perfect just as it is. Also all my “so‑thought” imperfections.

The Simplest and Most Difficult Thing

I have come to see that within any moment and any action, I am ether choosing love or fear. I look at these as the two strongest dualities in our world and the prime forces of our lives. It is the most simple thing, but also the most difficult at the same time. The answer to all the problems in my life, your life, all life, I feel, lies in this duality. Love or fear.

The simple part is that it is just to choose love, but the difficult part is actually doing it, which I have experienced a great deal of. A story is never a good story without a difficult part. Simba in the Lion King did not become king because he went through only easy moments. Monkey D. Luffy in One Piece did not become who he is because he did not go through hardship, and the same for Martin Luther King, Jesus Christ, Mother Theresa and many others. I bet that we can almost add any other “great” person or made‑up character, and the same will be true for them. I believe that the same is true for us and as I see it, it all depends on the willingness to grow and become great. As I look at it, greatness does not arise without difficult moments and is just not how the Universe works. So either we can accept this, or reject it. It is either walking the talk today and now, or wait for the perfect moment forever. Nothing is going to change, before I—you—we start changing. Someone has to take the first step. Why not do it now and together?

Can a Mountain Only Have One Side? 

In my continuing search for the essence of Elmod I have stumbled upon the idea of relativity and duality, and how it shapes the world. There is a dual flavor to life which comes up in many different forms. Life and death, cold and hot and tall and short. Two sides of the same coin and the Yin and the Yang. Can a mountain only have one side? I, believe not.

Further, I have come to believe that human feelings are based on ether love and fear, and is the polar opposite of each other. Recently, I got my first tattoo containing eight letters. The first four says L O V E and the last ones says F E A R. It reminds me to to love the fear, and remember the dualities of the world. There exists not just tall people, and not only short ones either, and we do not find life without death. The one comes with the other, and also compliment the other. We do not find energy disappearing, becoming nothing, but changing form instead. From form to formless and formless to form. We also do not only find masculinity in the world, but together with the feminine. Does a flower exist without its counterpart, the honeybee and all the other insects? Looking at the world we do not find only love, but fear also resides with it. So a coin with two side showing only love does not exist, because love would have no way of knowing what it is. Without anything to measure itself against.

Digging Deeper To Find The Essence of Way of Elmod

I recognize that I am influenced by the works of Neale Donald Walsh, and especially his books, Conversation With God series. Here the answer to life’s questions are written about in a form of conversation, between Neale and what he understands to be The Devine or God. The essence of the message from these books (and also the others works he has written), I feel is to choose to become a grander and more expansive version of myself, to recognizing why love and fear exists, and ultimately my true nature.  

So, my understanding of why love and fear exist is that it is impossible to experience oneself as anything, without having something that is the opposite of what one is. Meaning that if I am short, then I cannot experience myself as that without something that is not short, namely tall. With only shortness, after a long enough time, I would forget what short is and create tallness to finally again experience the shortness. So let us say that what I really am is love, and I want to experience myself as that. The thinking is that it is not possible to experience myself as love, without anything to measure it against, namely fear. So there is a reason why the fear exists. This is as I see it the whole idea behind Yin and Yang. Duality and the reason things are as they are.

Then for me, it brings up this question. What am I really? Am I the love or the fear? Do I have to be one or the other (either/or), or maybe, can I be both at the same time (both/and)? As I see it, fear is in this context used as a tool to experience the true essence of me, which is love. It is like a mirror where What I Really Am (which is love), can look at the fear and measure itself against that. At some level fear also has to be created to experience love, so the thinking further suggests that fear arises out of love, and is created from love. Meaning that it also is love, but dressed as the opposite. My understanding thus far is that I am both love and fear. It is easy to bless, kiss and embrace the love aspect of humanity, but can I do the same to the ugly, hateful and fearful side? I am not saying I have “The Answer”, but only sharing another point of view I have gathered on my own journey. My way is not the way, but only another way.

Through this way of looking at the world, I think it is possible to then understand that the fear is needed to experience love. Therefore I believe that it is important to not judge the fear, but acknowledge its importance and see that it is also a part of me. I am both sides of the coin, so by judging the “dark” side, I am judging half of myself. Is it possible to honor all the aspects of fear and love it? Have I not gone through my life, judging my “bad” sides and not liking them? Have I not thrown myself into the dark, because I misliked the fear side of life? Maybe I would not sit here writing these words, if it was not for fear? Maybe fear is myself showing me which way I can next grow towards? Maybe there was nothing to really fear—about fear, but instead have a grand adventure with instead?

My own experience and reflections tell me that a mountain cannot have only one side, but that it comes in two sides. It also tells me that love and fear are polar opposites and that I have lived in fear for the better part of my whole life. I am sharing this to tell the Universe that it is time to stop. Now—it is time to Return Home to the seat of consciousness I came from and return to my True identity, which I feel is love. This is the core of Elmod and what I feel called to wrap Way of Elmod around. Therefore, let all those with eyes to read and ears to hear: I am here once again. To remember how to love, and honor the fear, as it is also a part of myself. Shortened it can be written like this: Remember love, honor fear. This is the mantra.

Gratitude for the Past Elmod

Dear profound Past Elmod. I offer bountiful thanks for all the fear you have gone through and the beautiful and strong platform you have built. I offer thanks to the mission of being a servant of Mother Earth and the inspiration to elevate humanity. Love, joy, truth, transparency, inner healing and spiritual growth are all important in the collective journey and I acknowledge them as such. I am change, and Way of Elmod is not something which is constant, and I allow myself to flow with the inspirations to look deeper. Returning Home, remembering to love, and honor fear feels much more thruthful to me and I allow myself to change towards that. I humbly also offer thanks to all the people who have helped me become Who I am Today and all future people who will help be become Who I Will become Tomorrow. I choose to not take any of this for granted, but honor it like I honor my own inner child.

With the love that unconditionally gives us all back to ourselves,

Elmod Drage Nofer